The beginning of a new year or project is always my favorite time of the year. A new notebook or planner and thinking about new beginnings is my happy place. I always loved getting all my new school supplies and covering my books. Making a plan for how I was going to tackle this new year and rock it. Now that I am an adult, I looooove thinking about the new year and all the possibilities it holds. There are some things that I need to do in life and I have been ignoring them. 2015 is my year to address those. I just made a huge and drastic decision to focus on our family and become a stay at home mom.
I was so excited for my fresh planner and a the blank canvas of 2015.
But as luck would have it, 2015 started for me with a fever for five days. I was completely knocked out of the game of life. I couldn’t read books, blog or do anything that required significant thought. So Netflix (Gilmore Girls) and Facebook became my only entertainment for FIVE days. As I lay in bed, I watched my blogging friends post their goals and favorite posts of 2014. I LOVE those posts! This was out first year blogging, I wanted to write a reflection post and inform everyone of what the blog will look like in the months to come. (That will still happen!) I felt like I was being left behind. I couldn’t even sit with a notebook and think of my new goals or better yet, my word for the year.
It. Was. Killing. Me.
I figured that this was God’s way of telling me to slow down and just be still. OR it could be that my sister was sick and visiting the week before and she passed her nasty flu germs to me. 😉 Either way I was out for the count and missing out!
When I was feeling better and back in the game it was time to hit the ground running for homeschool. My days currently exist of homeschool and getting our house back to running the way I want it to. There is lots of purging and reorganizing going on here. Projects that have been sitting for years are being addressed. I am working on being the wife that I have wanted to be and not the crazy “so glad to see you- I need to run to the computer and work now that you are home” wife. (So many blog posts coming about that) After spending WAY too many hours at the computer, I hardly sit down with my old friend anymore. The week away was good for me. It allowed me to sever a relationship that was bit too intimate considering it is just a machine. I am focusing on just sitting in the living room with projects like sewing and reading.
Now that I am finding a rhythm that I love, my mind is still not cooperating when I want to think about my 2015 word. I use it as a theme for my entire year and I love the idea of it. Last year was the first year that I used a word for the year and I was looking forward to seeing how my word would evolve. But alas, I still don’t have my word. Some that have come to mind are serve, faith and grace. The reason why I suddenly stopped being busy was in order to serve my husband and family with faith and grace. So maybe I will have a phrase this year instead of a word…
This post has been part of Love, Jaime’s Stream of Conciousness #SOCSunday I am loving this exercise and hope you hop on over and visit Jaime. She is fabulous. 🙂